
I was looking at Hans Hofmann's "The Gate" and figured that seemed like me. But then again there's this idea that I don't really care about modern urbanism. I'm certainly not a realist, and I don't want to be one. In fact, despite the fact that I love Edward Hopper, I don't believe realism has much of a place in today's world. I'm a big believer in the idea that we don't know what our options are. The "glass consumer", as posited by Susanne Lace, essentially strips any chance we have at knowing what options are possible simply because we know so much less about ourselves than corporations do. If that's the case, what's the point of reality?

I do believe in pushing forward and finding news ways to progress society. Rules are helpful in everyday life, but they aren't the drivers of progress. I'm no Picasso (neither in talent nor style) but I do get Dali. I don't care much about light, but I do care a lot about color and how it contrasts with the other colors on the canvas as well as how it contrasts with my own personal feelings. "The BATHE", which I finished in 2014, is a direct descendant of a method of psychotherapy used to figure out what is troubling a patient and how he or she feels about it. I painted over another painting because I didn't like the first one. Then I just worked it until I felt it was right. I didn't get any answers out of this until I painted "The Response". It was then that I knew I was doing something right.
But this make me a Modernist? I hardly think so. There was nothing about society in that painting - it was all about me. It wasn't until I started doing my cityscapes that I started to think about society. But even then those are reflections of how I feel about living in an urban environment. I grew up on an island in Maine, so even though I've lived in cities the past 15 years I still feel a rush of claustrophobia that I can't seem to escape.
But oddly my closest contribution to Modernist thinking are my figurative paintings. This makes no sense to me, but I get it, too. I don't paint figurative paintings because I think they're beautiful, but I choose the subjects because they say something about how I view society. Cluster it and there's no room for growth. Keep it simple and there's nothing but space to fill in.